☆.*・ merry christmas .*・°☆

hello and merry christmas. i was afraid that today wouldn't feel like christmas. we don't even have a tree up or anything. don't really have the space for it. but when i heard my mom bought a spiral honey ham, my spirits were lifted. i was so happy. i mean christmas doesn't feel as magical as it did when i was little, but i still felt pretty happy today. my mom never raised me and my brother to believe in santa claus. i always knew the gifts that i got were from people who loved me = w = but as we got older the gifts decreased. but i'm still glad i have my mom (and my other family e w e). but i love my mom so much. we're so close and i'm so lucky to still have her here with me and have her be supportive in my choices and such.

one of my aunts always comes over for christmas to come and see us and give gifts. i usually make her birthday and christmas cards. i missed out on her birthday because i was lazy. so i decided to make it up to her by making her a small accordion fold artist book. it's just simple. you can kind of see where the pages fold. i procrastinated on this so much. i ended up working on it at like 2am and didn't finished until it was almost 5am. but i got it done. and i liked how it came out. i had to photomerge this since the book was longer than the scanning space, so it's not a perfect scan. but i tried. i want to do more stuff like this. i would upload pictures i took of it, but i have a poop camera that takes poop pictures so i won't be posting those. e w e

i tried on my wig today. it was a little hard for me. even after watching videos of people showing how to put the wig cap and wig on. i knew my wig was going to be long, but idk, but i got to really see how long it was when i put it on. i might get my hairdresser to cut a little off. just a little. but i like it. i just really need someone to show me how to take care of it. i hope when i get back to school a friend will show me how to take care of them. i'm just so afraid i'm going to mess it up. ; n ; and i really do like it though.

i would like to say thanks to everyone who reads this blog. i just started back posting here and i hope i can continue to post here. i want to work on my layout for the new year, so i hope i can get that done. i haven't even picked a color scheme. e A e but thanks for reading. = w =

some art and stuff.

hello. i typed the beginning of this post so many times because i didn't know how to start off the post. so i'll just start off talking about a gif i made recently. i really like it. i was up at like 12am and just started to draw. and it turned into something i really liked.

it was going to just be a drawing. but i decided to turn it into a gif. but it's for kelly. here is her website, she makes some cool art: http://okaykellyk.com/

i made this illustration for mar. she wanted some cover art for her playlist. i wasn't able to give it to her on time. but i really wanted to do this. i think i could use it for my portfolio. e w e it took me forever to make it because i was so indecisive about the palette. i was inspired by yusuke nakamura. he does the cd covers for asian kung-fu generation and he did the character designs for tatami galaxy. i just really love his art. it's so minimal and interesting. i also love his compositions.

i found an interesting short film yesterday. i wanted to share it because i think it's really good. the creatures remind me of things from kaiba (something else that's interesting to watch).

i love short animated films. i would like to see someone come out with a good 2d animated film that could be seen in theaters. but the short above is one i found yesterday. it's really good in my opinion even though it made me sad. but it's nice if art can make you feel some kind of way.

this one i've seen several times. and i just love it.

well i think that's all for now. thanks for reading. (●⁰౪⁰●)

a few things i did in my dorm

i tried taking pictures in my dorm while i was at school fall quarter, only of myself and my rilakkuma bby. but when i go back next quarter i plan on taking more pictures. i must admit that my dorm isn't special. i don't have any sexy furniture in it or anything. but i still want to try taking nice pictures of things in there.

here's my rilakkuma bby on my bed in my dorm. he's just chillin'. he keeps be company because my roommate is always with her boyfriend at his apartment. so i'm alone in the dorm by myself. last year i had to deal with this, and i don't do well alone. i was very depressed. i hated myself and i hated being alone. i would cry so much. but i'm better now, i don't hate myself any more, but i still don't like being alone. i mean i do, but i guess there's a difference in wanting to be alone and being lonely. because i'm an introvert, so i like having time with myself, i just don't like the feeling of being lonely. but i bought myself a rilakkuma for my birthday this year, and he has kept me company in my room. he's so soft and very therapeutic.

when this was made, i didn't mean to click the video button. i wanted to take a picture. but that happened. i think that tapping noise was me doing that thing that people do with their hands when their waiting for something, that tapping thing lol...i don't know how to explain it. but i wanted to take a picture with my rilakkuma bby. my mema has a lot of cute sweaters so i asked her for some. the one i'm wearing is one of them. sorry for the crappy video quality. there's no good lighting in the room e A e and i don't have any extra lights...oh well.

little commission sneak peaks

i actually got commissioned and that made me happy. these are little sneakpeaks of them. i'm not posting them yet since i don't feel comfortable posting them before the person who these were commissioned for sees them. the person asked me to make these because they were going to be a gift for someone. their birthday is at the end of the month...so i'm going to have to wait a while before i post it. i might post them here earlier since i don't have to worry about someone reblogging them.